Journal Entry: Dream – Weary Soul – 9/5/10
I was walking down a path that went through a small quaint town; my brother was walking beside me on my left side. We passed a general store and a man came out with a six pack of beer cradled under his left arm and one beer in his right hand. He looked at me and said, “Do you want one?” I shook my head to say no and we kept on walking. I asked my brother if he knew about the man who lived in the house just to our right who had been recently widowed. He responded, “No.” I said, “But you live here and this is a small town and you know everyone, how could you not know how he is hurting?” I knew by the Spirit the depths of the man’s pain and how he was hiding it from everyone trying to appear strong. I began to feel such sadness in my soul as I began to sob. I didn’t want my brother to see my sorrow but my sobbing went to depths I hadn’t felt in a long time and I couldn’t hide it any longer. I wept bitterly as I squinted through the tears just to see the road under my feet. However, as deep as my sorrow was my brother was clueless to the pain in my soul or anyone else’s. We kept walking on.
– End of Dream-
Notes: I wasn’t dreaming about my soul weeping. Somehow, I knew that my soul had actually been weeping although I experienced no physical tears when I woke up, the tears were spiritual tears. They were extremely deep felt tears that washed away the weariness in my soul. I could tell things were different afterwards, much different. I had been praying for months for the Lord to heal my soul; to bring healing and restoration and at the appointed time He did. I’m not saying He’s finished restoring my soul but He sure has begun the healing process and all I had to do was lie beside the quiet waters and wait.
-End of Journal Entry-
The dream is about the weary and wounded souls that are in us and all around us. We don’t see them because we hide our pain from others. Often we don’t even recognize that our own soul is weary. We just feel like we have to be strong and press on and hope things will improve. After all people are depending on us for so many things and there lies the problem.
I see the body of Christ as a hurting, tired, weary army which refuses to admit they are exhausted from busyness, rejection and the effects of sin. As an army of God we’re not ready to face the trials and struggles of the days ahead. We have been overworked by religion, duties and responsibilities and the expectations of others in our personal lives. There is a Japanese word Karoshi which means, “Death from overwork.” Overwork kills thousands upon thousands every year. Many people choose to be busy so they don’t have to face the vanity of their life. Some keep noise going afraid of what they may hear in the quiet. The “quiet” can be very discomforting to someone who’s not used to it. Busyness becomes an identity of self-worth to many by establishing a sense of importance. However, busyness eventually wears us down by neglecting our soul the rest it requires to prosper in life.
Jesus addressed the people with “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my load is light.”
Weariness Comes From
Biblically weariness and unrest come from sin and disobedience or from the sins of others perpetrated against us. Adding to the causes of weariness are sorrow and grief, conflicts in relationships, daily responsibilities, busyness and physical fatigue.
And Rebekah said to Isaac, I am weary of my life because of the daughters of Heth: if Jacob take a wife of the daughters of Heth, such as these [which are] of the daughters of the land, what good shall my life do me? Gen. 27:46
My soul is weary of my life; I will leave my complaint upon myself; I will speak in the bitterness of my soul. Job 10:1
So what will heal the wounded souls of the masses? Will it be three points and a poem sermon? Will more Bible studies bring the healing? Will more commitment to the church or perfect attendance bring us comfort? Many times people are made to feel obligated to attend church every time the door is open. If you’re serving in some duty each time you are in church then it will eventually lead to burn-out if no relief is made available.
I once worked for a boss who had me on an important project; the project I was working on was so he could look good to his superiors. I worked seven days a week for seven weeks traveling all across the country without a day off. I found myself mentally losing it, I called him one day before coming to work and requested some time off.
More than once, I’ve been is engaged in a long term battle during my Christian walk and I expect you have as well. Often in ministry God will send you to places you don’t want to go and ask you to do things you don’t want to do with people you don’t want to be associated.
This kind of service and faithfulness wears on the soul no matter how great a saint you may be because of the constant spiritual resistance you face in these assignments. The adversary will oppose you every step of the way by using people whom he has influenced.
How do we recover from weariness?
And He said to them, “Come away by yourselves to a secluded place and rest a while.” (For there were many people coming and going, and they did not even have time to eat.) They went away in the boat to a secluded place by themselves. Mark 6:31-32
In the verses below Paul has been very active in his assignment and was in need of rest. The books of the New Testament are filled with the trials and perils Paul endured.
“Then spake the Lord to Paul in the night by a vision, Be not afraid, but speak, and hold not thy peace: for I am with you, and no man will attack you in order to harm you, for I have many people in this city.” And he settled there a year and six months, teaching the word of God among them.” Acts 18:9-11
Why did He do this?
We think believers shouldn’t get weary or depressed so we just hide it and certainly don’t let anyone know it, especially the ones closest to us. We certainly don’t want our fellow believers to see us weary for they may think we’re weak and not standing in the Word and all its promises. However, ministry, life situations and responsibilities will drain the life right out of us, it’s common to us all.
Jesus knew what he was talking about when he told his disciples to come away with him. The news that Jesus’ cousin, John the Baptist, had been murdered had been delivered to the men. They needed to “go offline” for a while and be restored by getting some REST!
What is the cure?
The one sure cure for the weary soul is to rest beside the quiet waters with the Lord. Recognizing that you are weary is the first step in your recovery. Prayer and asking the Father to restore your soul is vital. He will wash your soul with your own tears as He rehabs you back to life once again. The Hebrew word for restore is “shuwb” and it means “to return, turn back”. We need to allow Him to lead us to the quiet waters. Spend as much time with Him as you can without making it legalistic, you can’t rest if you’re working to get to rest. It means you learn to simply be still, wait upon the Lord, to listen and to rest.
“So there remains a Sabbath rest for the people of God. For the one who has entered His rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from His . Therefore let us be diligent to enter that rest, so that no one will fall, through following the same example of disobedience.” Heb 4:9-11
Life is filled at times with moments of great joy as well as great sadness; if you’re human you will get weary at some point in your life. The successes of our past or the miracles we’ve seen don’t help us escape weariness of the soul in the present situations. We must allow God to bring this to pass for He is the Healer of our souls as well as our bodies.
As believers we should be able to bring comfort to the weary, I love this verse and have prayed it before going to sleep many times.
“The Lord GOD hath given me the tongue of the learned, that I should know how to speak a word in season to [him that is] weary: he wakeneth morning by morning, he wakeneth mine ear to hear as the learned.” Is. 50:4
You can’t rush God on how and when He restores your soul but He will in His timing and however He chooses to do so. He wants His people to be whole and healthy. “Beloved, I pray that in all respects, you may prosper and be in good health, just as your soul prospers.” 3 John 1:2
“The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of mine enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows. Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.” Psalm 23:1-6
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint. Is. 40:31