To Be With Him

Journal Entry: 9/9/2010

Dream: Just To Be With Him

kitty quiet time smlI was driving down the hi-way and was half-way between two small towns. I pulled my vehicle off to the side of the road onto the grass and got out. I walked to the rear of the vehicle and saw my cat (named Kitty) who is a dear family member.  She apparently had walked fifteen miles to get where I had stopped my vehicle. At first I didn’t like it that she had left her safe home until I realized how much she just wanted to be with me which was displayed by the great effort it took to come be with me. I picked her up in my arms and put her in the front passenger seat. She sat up tall and gleamed with joy because she was with me and I was very happy to be with her as well.

Then the scene in the dream changed and I was sitting in the front passenger seat of my natural father’s vehicle. I always loved being with him although he didn’t speak that much to me. I was just so happy to be with him as he steered the vehicle onto a side road to show me things he found interesting. I looked over at him as he rode with his elbow sticking out the window and he pointed out things he wanted to show me; I loved every minute of it. Somehow, I knew he enjoyed it as much as I did.

End of Dream:

Meaning of dream:

The dream is about how our heavenly Father loves for us to come to be with Him.  As much as I was touched by the effort my cat made to be with me, so does our heavenly Father appreciate our effort to be with Him. The thrill I felt when I realized that my cat risked everything by coming so far to be with me melted my heart. She gave up her safety, comfort, resources and family to follow me; I was so touched. The Lord impressed upon me that this is how He feels when His children come just to be with Him in fellowship.  He loves us being with Him and looks for those who will come spend time with Him. Few will make the effort but those who do are greatly rewarded.

Many times when I have been before the Lord I experienced the supernatural things of God which would not have happened if I hadn’t disciplined myself to spend intimate time with Him. Many people are seeking the supernatural of God but aren’t seeking Him for Him alone.

I can remember just sitting in the same room with my natural father just because I wanted to be with him. I wasn’t necessarily expecting anything from him each time but when he did open up and share mysteries of his life it made me want to know him all the more.

Our heavenly Father is much like that in regard to wanting us to be with Him and if He chooses to open up, you will want to keep coming back time and time again to be with Him, wanting to know Him all the more.

I promise you if you will make the effort to be with Him in a steadfast, faithful manner, He will reveal Himself at a time of His choosing. After all He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

“And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.” Heb 11:6

Jesus taught it is necessary to deny ourselves and follow Him which is key to knowing the things of God. He also declared that we will be known by our fruit.

priest praying“A good tree cannot produce bad fruit, nor can a bad tree produce good fruit.” “Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire.”So then, you will know them by their fruits. “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter.Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many  miracles?’ “And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; DEPART FROM ME, YOU WHO PRACTICE LAWLESSNESS.’ Mat 7:18-23

How do you get to know someone? You spend time with them as often as you can. You exchange thoughts and learn about one another. Over a period of time you build a relationship that truly is wonderful and unique. We hear how it is important to know God and most take that to mean read the Bible and learn about Him but that is only part of the equation. Jesus makes it clear in Matthew 7 verse 23 that he will declare to them, “I never knew you”.

I can read about the president of the country but that doesn’t mean I know him. I only know about him. However, if I spend time visiting with him, eventually I can say I know him and he knows me.

Relationship is the one thing that is threaded into God’s word from Genesis to Revelation. From the beginning of man in the Garden up to now God is looking for people who want to know Him in a true relationship. That is what it is about…RELATIONSHIP! When the Lord showed me Mat 7:18-23 some years ago and what He would do with those who use Him to self-promote their ministry I heard Him clearly say to me, “It’s about RELATIONSHIP”! I have kept true to that revelation ever since no matter what I’m going through I go through it in a pure relationship with my Lord.

I believe relationship is the one key thing that is missing in the messages preached today. Relationship is the true foundation of walking with God and being pleasing in His sight. In a few verses just after Jesus said, “I never knew you” He teaches about building your house on the rock so you can stand when the floods come and they will come.

Relationship goes beyond just knowing the scriptures because He is the incarnate Word. Just knowing the Word won’t keep you from perishing in Hell but being known intimately of God will. If you read the book by Mary K. Baxter, “A Divine Revelation of Hell” you will never be the same person again. You will be amazed at the revelation which she brings from her journeys there and how many lost souls speak scriptures in the flames of their torment. You can search the Internet and find the book, audio or soft copy version. The Start of Audio version: Part 1 of 14.

Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me.” Mat. 16:24

And He summoned the crowd with His disciples, and said to them, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me.” MK 8:34

relationshipAnd He said to another, “Follow Me.” But he said, “Lord, permit me first to go and bury my father.” But He said to him, “Allow the dead to bury their own dead; but as for you, go and proclaim everywhere the kingdom of God.” Another also said, “I will follow You, Lord; but first permit me to say good-bye to those at home.” But Jesus said to him, “No one, after putting his hand to the plow and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.” Luke 9:59-62

Jesus spoke about the sower of the seed and how the devil would come to steal the Word of God from the heart. The rocky ground is where the roots of the seed couldn’t go down deep enough to survive the heat and dry climate and the thorns which grew up to choke out the plant representing the cares of the world.

We live in a busy world and have things on our plate but we must make time to be with the Father. It is the key vital part that is missing in most Christians walk. Many people try to substitute attending church as being with the Father but that isn’t the same. Is being in a public meeting with your spouse the same as being alone with them in an intimate setting?  Of course not and neither is your public display intimate time with the Father. It can be part of your walk but God never intended it to replace time alone with Him.

He wants us to come and desires it more than we know. Think about how you feel when your spouse, kids, dear friends or pets come to you just to be with you and how that makes you feel. Now imagine how the Father feels when you come to be with Him for no other reason than you just want to spend time together. Relationship is the true foundation of the believers walk and truly isn’t an option with God. Think about that statement for a second. If you want the things of God you have to be known of God and that requires a relationship with Him.

I hope you will make the necessary changes to your walk and make relationship with Him a priority. It will forever change you!

Be Blessed In a Fruitful Relationship with Him,

Bro. Bill



  • The Adulterous Church – Many Are Called – Few Chosen

    Journal entry August, 25, 2009 – At 5:15 am – I heard in the Spirit what sounded like a “notifier contentment” ring tone available on a Blackberry phone. I quickly turned to my phone, which was on the nightstand table, to see if the sound possibly could have originated from the phone. The phone indicated that it had no message activity at all. In fact the alarm, which initiated at the present time of 5:45 am, that morning didn’t play the alarm tone at all. I had to pull the battery out, reinstall it to reboot the phone, in order for the sounds to start working properly again.

    I have heard other messages similar to this one in the Spirit before when God was about to give a revelation or a word to me or to me for someone else; Hearing in the Spirit sounds as real as hearing in the natural. The best way I know to distinguish the origin of the sound is to take a quick inventory of my surroundings looking for anything that may have caused the sound. A good example would be knocking at the front door, if no one is at the door; nor anyone in the area at the time of the knocking, more than likely you heard in the Spirit. If you can rule out all natural sources of the sound, then you may indeed have heard something in the Spirit. Therefore, I put myself on full alert to be listening, watching and waiting to see what the Lord had to say to me. Hab. 2:1-2

    adulterous-church1Journal entry August 26, 2009 – Sometime during the night I was given a series of dreams where a bed was situated in the middle of a dark expansive room that reached into infinity. The bed was the only piece of furniture in the room.  Lying in the bed was a naked woman and she was committing adultery with another being, which was a demonic spirit. I saw Jesus standing out in from of me, slightly to my right, watching this take place.  I heard Him say, “This isn’t my bride”. I began to say, “Oh Lord I don’t want to be part of this, Lord forgive us, and forgive your church!”

    The same message was given to me in a dream July 17, 2009. Read The Preparation of the Bride – The Epoch Dream #5 The Condition of the Bride.

    Scripture Ref. 1 Cor. 6:15-16 “Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Shall I then take away the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? May it never be! Or do you not know that the one who joins himself to a prostitute is one body {with her?} For He says, “THE TWO SHALL BECOME ONE FLESH.”

    I believe the primary spirit in which the church is committing adultery is the Babylonian spirit. What is the spirit of Babylon?

    Martin Luther wrote in 1520, “Hence we see how angry God is with us, in that he has permitted godless teachers to conceal the words of this testament from us, and thereby, as much as in them lay, to extinguish faith. And the inevitable result of this extinguishing of faith is even now plainly to be seen – namely, the most godless superstition of works. For when faith dies and the word of faith is silent, works and the traditions of works immediately crowd into their place. By them we have been carried away out of our own land, as in a Babylonian captivity, and despoiled of all our precious possessions. This has been the fate of the mass. It has been converted by the teaching of godless men into a good work, which they themselves call an “opus operatum” (from the works done referring to the efficacy of the Sacraments) and by which they presumptuously imagine themselves all-powerful with God.”

    Babylonian SpiritThe Babylonian spirit is a spirit that sets out to extinguish faith with false doctrine which leads man into works. For when faith dies there is no faith which leads people to ascend to God in their own way. It disrupts the plan and purposes of God by its influence of a non-God spirit.

    The Babylonian spirit influences ministries to do works such as, let us build, let us make a name for ourselves, let us do great projects, let us be like God. It replaces the faith with works and does not follow nor seek the leading or direction of Holy Spirit.

    And they said, Go to, let us build us a city and a tower, whose top [may reach] unto heaven; and let us make us a name, lest we be scattered abroad upon the face of the whole earth. Gen. 11:4

    “Though Babylon should mount up to heaven, and though she should fortify the height of her strength, yet from me shall spoilers come unto her, saith the Lord ” Jeremiah 51:53

    Through false teachers which infiltrated the church hundreds of years ago the church has been divided and led into error and immorality.  Those who are to be the bride of Christ will have to come out of the religious system which is controlled by the Babylonian spirit.

    In the book of Revelation, the Bible gives us a clear picture of the spiritual status of the world in the last hour of the age. If the Bible says that in the end time judgment the Babylonian spirit falls, that tells me that it had ascended to a high place.

    After these things I saw another angel coming down from heaven, having great authority, and the earth was illumined with his glory. And he cried out with a mighty voice, saying, “Fallen, fallen is Babylon the great! She has become a dwelling place of demons and a prison of every unclean spirit, and a prison of every unclean and hateful bird. “For all the nations have drunk of the wine of the passion of her immorality, and the kings of the earth have committed {acts of} immorality with her, and the merchants of the earth have become rich by the wealth of her sensuality.” I heard another voice from heaven, saying, “Come out of her, my people, so that you will not participate in her sins and receive of her plagues; for her sins have piled up as high as heaven, and God has remembered her iniquities. Rev. 18:1-5

    In the book of Revelation, Jesus said to the early churches that they were holding on to false teachings, were eating things sacrificed to idols, tolerated the spirit of Jezebel and were committing acts of immorality. This pretty much sums up the methodology of the Babylonian spirit and it very much paints a picture of the world church today.

    Bride MadeReady“And to the angel of the church in Pergamum write: The One who has the sharp two-edged sword says this: ‘But I have a few things against you, because you have there some who hold the teaching of Balaam, who kept teaching Balak to put a stumbling block before the sons of Israel, to eat things sacrificed to idols and to commit {acts of} immorality.  So you also have some who in the same way hold the teaching of the Nicolaitans.” Rev 2: 12, 14-15 (Note: The Nicolaitans refers to those who, while professing themselves to be Christians, lived licentiously (recklessly and/or extravagantly.) This sounds exactly like the majority of the church today!)

    To the church at Thyatira:

    “And to the angel of the church in Thyatira write: The Son of God, who has eyes like a flame of fire, and His feet are like burnished bronze, says this: ‘But I have {this} against you, that you tolerate the woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess, and she teaches and leads My bond-servants astray so that they commit {acts of} immorality and eat things sacrificed to idols.” Rev 2:18, 20

    To the church at Sardis:

    “But you have a few people in Sardis who have not soiled their garments; and they will walk with Me in white, for they are worthy. ‘He who overcomes will thus be clothed in white garments; and I will not erase his name from the book of life, and I will confess his name before My Father and before His angels. ‘He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.” Rev. 3: 4-6

    To the church at Laodicea:

    “To the angel of the church in Laodicea write: The Amen, the faithful and true Witness, the Beginning of the creation of God, says this: ‘I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot; I wish that you were cold or hot. So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My mouth.’ Because you say, “I am rich, and have become wealthy, and have need of nothing, and you do not know that you are wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked,” Rev. 3: 14-17

    When looking at the western church today, particularly America, I see the same immorality in the world has crept in. Not only is there gross immorality in the church today it is tolerated to a great extent and even defended by many denominations. The loss of the message of consecration and holiness has created a church which has no authority or the fire of God. For most Christians, intimacy with Christ was lost long ago and what remains exhibits few of the characteristics of the bride of Christ.

    As a prerequisite, the bride of Christ will have both fire and authority because she has been purged, purified and refined by His winnowing fork. The message I keep hearing from Holy Spirit is, “Come out of her my people, so that you will not participate in her sins and receive of her plagues”.

    Recently the Father was speaking to me and said something which caused me to shudder. He said, “My bride doesn’t come from the church as much as from out of the world”.  That statement shook me somewhat but I know it is true. The great end-time harvest will bring in many souls from the world and a huge contingent will be made of youth. Those who are truly in the church system today, and are truly seeking Christ in intimacy, will come out of the church system to serve the Lord’s bride as gatherers and preparers, for the bride to make herself ready.

    “Let us rejoice and be glad and give the glory to Him, for the marriage of the Lamb has come and His bride has made herself ready.” It was given to her to clothe herself in fine linen, bright {and} clean; for the fine linen is the righteous acts of the saints. Then he *said to me, “Write, ‘Blessed are those who are invited to the marriage supper of the Lamb.’ ” And he *said to me, “These are true words of God.” Rev 19: 7-9

    Preparation of the BrideAccording to the Bible, the marriage supper of the Lamb is by invitation only. We must be a close and intimate acquaintance with the bridegroom to be invited and show up wearing the proper dinner attire.   In Matthew 22: 11-14 “But when the king came in to look over the dinner guests, he saw a man there who was not dressed in wedding clothes, and he *said to him, ‘Friend, how did you come in here without wedding clothes?’ And the man was speechless. “Then the king said to the servants, ‘Bind him hand and foot, and throw him into the outer darkness; in that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’ “For many are called, but few {are} chosen.”

    The Message From the Podiums Must Change

    In the prearranged times of God there are revelations and insight released to appointed faithful individuals of God which bring new understanding to the body of Christ of the things of God. God has used individual such as Martin Luther, John Wesley, Kenneth Hagin and many others for His divine purpose. A now God is saying to the body of Christ, “I’m doing a new thing and it’s time to move from this mountain”.

    “”The LORD our God spoke to us at Horeb, saying, ‘You have stayed long enough at this mountain. Duet 1:6

    There has been a paradigm shift in the Spirit of God and places His focus on the preparation of His bride. The message from the pulpits must align with the purpose of God. Going forward, it will become evident which ministers are truly hearing Holy Spirit and which ones are not. Christ is coming back for a bride without spot, wrinkle or blemish; a bride which has made herself ready for the Son of God.  All those who hear His voice say, “Come out of the world and follow Me,” make yourself ready!

    “{Come} with me from Lebanon, {my} bride, May you come with me from Lebanon. Journey down from the summit of Amana, From the summit of Senir and Hermon, From the dens of lions, From the mountains of leopards. Sgs 4:8

    Bro. Bill Nelson



  • Oh That I May Be With Him

    One of the strangest lessons in this life must be that hardships and problems draw us closer and closer to our Lord.

    with himWhile still mourning the death of my mother, I was in the process of moving my oldest brother into suitable living arrangements.  My brother is mentally challenged and has been my “inheritance” since our mother’s death.  Naturally I was feeling sad, lonely and anxious from the stress, the decisions to be made and clearly the physical labor of moving.  I felt completely removed from my normal routine and wondered if my life would ever resemble what it used to be?  Would my life ever have a purpose or a destiny?  It appeared esteemed people around me had  a calling on their life; they had ministry positions and compared to my seemingly sad and boring life day-after-day, they looked to be important.

    While talking to the Father about these thoughts and feelings, I imagined myself to be of no use to Him, I felt I wasn’t working for the Kingdom and somehow “letting Him down.”  Quietly I said to Him, “Lord, I just want to be used by You, to do something for You.”  Quickly, Holy Spirit responded to me, “I have lots of people doing things for Me, what I need is someone to be with Me.”  Those simple yet profound words thrilled me; He wants me to be with Him!  These magnificent words changed my life and changed the way I saw myself from that moment forward.

    The Father desires a relationship with you.  No longer is there a wall between you and God, you have access to Him, He desires for you to spend time with Him, getting to know Him.

    “Jesus went up into the mountain, and called to himself those whom he wanted, and they went to him.  He appointed twelve, that they might be with him, and that he might send them out to preach, and to have authority to heal sicknesses and to cast out demons.”  Mark 3:13-15.

    “Father, I desire that they also whom you have given me be with me where I am, that they may see my glory, which you have given me, for you loved me before the foundation of the world.   Righteous Father, the world hasn’t known you, but I knew you; and these knew that you sent me. I made known to them your name, and will make it known; that the love with which you loved me may be in them, and I in them.”  John 17:24-26

    bench afarJournal entry: Lord I’m thanking You for opening doors for my brother a nice house to live near us and for him to be safe and happy.  I’ve felt really sifted during this process of mourning Mom and taking on the responsibility of my brother. Sometimes a part of me wants my old life back!  I’m afraid and weepy today but I keep my eyes on You Lord and I won’t LET myself be troubled, I won’t LET self pity come on me, I won’t lose heart or lose faith in You.  You will never leave me or forsake me.  When I feel like this, I do not need to think or mull things over, I don’t need to seek pity from others, I just need to be still and quiet and look to You.  So, I stay on the alter under the knife and I will my mind to shut up and to offer praise, thanks and prayers unto You, for I know You have a plan for me and for my life for a hope and a future (Jer. 29:11).    I am weak in myself but strong in You Lord.

    I visualize bringing my cares and laying them at Your feet, I see You touch the top of my head lovingly and I crumble at Your feet.  I hear You telling me, “Shhhhhh.”

    My friend, St. John of the Cross said, “The deeper my faith = the closer my union with God.”

    “Experience with God only comes by pressing in and abiding in Him.  He wants purity of heart, not gifts without fruit.”  It’s not about religion, it’s about relationship.”  Neville Johnson

    Be Blessed In Him,

    Jae