I am so humbled to have been asked to be an author on this blog…..when I was first asked, my initial response was fear and apprehension and doubt…..but as the Father said “It’s time….”, I began to feel the grounding stability of His belief in me come alive in the deepest parts of who I am. There is so much inside of my spirit and my heart that I know I am to share…..and I trust Him to help me share WHAT I am to share and WHEN I am to share it. But I know where I am to start….because it’s burning inside of me with His fingerprint on it saying “This…now…”
No matter where you find yourself in your life at this moment…..don’t give up on yourself and don’t give up on God! No matter what you have done, what you have put yourself through, what others have put you through, what life has put you through, what the enemy has put you through…..don’t give up!
Nine months ago, my life as I knew it ended. I found myself in a place where I couldn’t even see tomorrow, much less a future. I saw no hope. I saw no going on. I was shattered and numb. I would look at myself in the mirror and wonder who that person was that looked back at me. I didn’t recognize anything in her eyes. I would stare at them in complete unrecognition of who looked back at me. And I would doubt. And I would fear. And I would question. Until it would be so overwhelming I would turn away and forget what I had seen because it was too painful to try to digest. I knew He had answers for me….and I knew I would hear them…..but the pain was too thick at the time to recognize clarity of any sort. I would lay in bed at night, curled up in a ball of pain that was so intense I could only feel pieces of it at a time. My heart was bleeding and tearing so violently on the inside….yet my face was chiseled like stone showing nothing. I couldn’t utter a word. I couldn’t listen to music. I couldn’t read a book. Hearing voices would make me cringe because the assault on my senses was just too much to handle. Because I had to do something with it. Anything that required me to process thoughts or emotions was more than I could take. I would run to my room and hide. And I would hear this tender whisper on the inside…”I have plans for you.” I recognized His voice. I know His voice. We are intimate, He and I. He touches me where no one else can…..in the most tender places of my heart. His whisper would be like a salve on the raw places of my heart. I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t respond. Silent tears would roll down my face and I would lay still and quiet. And I would choose to believe that it was true. Because He is the only truth. I have learned that no matter how real circumstances and emotions feel at the moment, the only truth that will stand and remain is Him and what He says about me. So I believed Him. He is faithful. And as the days and weeks and months have somehow gone by, I find myself hearing that same whisper I have heard over and over, “I have plans for you…” When I couldn’t see them…”I have plans for you.” When I would wonder what they were…”I have plans for you…” When I was doubting myself….”I have plans for you.” And they are good plans. They are plans of hope. And although the future I foresaw myself having does not exist anymore, He has plans for my future….and for yours.
the inside….”I have plans for you…”
Jer 29:11 (NIV) “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
So, thank you for letting me be a new addition to this amazing, supernatural blog. Please know that this is the beginning of those plans that He has for me…..and I am humbled and excited at what He has in store for you and for me…because His ways are far above our ways and His thoughts are so far beyond ours…..and they’re always so much bigger and better than we could ever imagine.