Seeing In the Dark

Sunday morning I entered quiet time with a heavy heart, He had been quiet for so long. I needed to hear from Him and asked the Lord, “What have I done that so offends you? Are you not still my Lord? Do you not still have my heart?”

Then the word of the Lord came to me saying, “Come let us reason together, for I have graced you in many ways and indeed you truly walk in them. Although it isn’t understood by many, my paths are difficult to tread, even on a good day.

bubble boyBreezes blow and then they’re gone.  In the wind there is hope for a season of change. Light will once again shine upon you from out of the darkness; you will come to see more light. Dark times are necessary to teach you to appreciate the good things of life all the more; few can truly understand this principal. For to be able to see light and glory and hope while in the darkest of times, will be essential in the days ahead. It is vital to have “hope” when it appears to be hopeless.

Trust in Me and I will deliver you from the hands of those who are at odds with you, they are as a vapor to Me and will not stand in truth before Me. Between now and tomorrow I will deliver you from them. It will occur and the wind will cover your face. Let the word settle in your heart.

I am able to deliver you. I have a plan. I have a purpose. Come let us reason together. Light comes to you in the darkness. Light covers you in darkness. It is the way of the Lord.”  -Journal Entry End –

When my wife and I entered this season of walking blindly in the darkness, it just seemed crazy to think of God and to think of darkness. What was God saying to us…see in the dark!?

His Glory –

“Clouds and thick darkness surround Him; Righteousness and justice are the foundation of His throne.  Ps 97:2 NAS

“He bowed the heavens also, and came down

With thick darkness under His feet.

And He rode upon a cherub and flew;

And He sped upon the wings of the wind.

He made darkness His hiding place,

His canopy around Him,

Darkness of waters, thick clouds of the skies.

From the brightness before Him passed His thick clouds,” Ps 18:9-12 NAS

After entering into this season of testing, while in my quiet time, my eyes were closed and I was meditating on Him.  I saw a dark shadow in a robe, shaped like the Lord, slowly pass between my head and the lamp sitting on the table to the right of my chair. After He passed, I opened my eyes and saw nothing nor did I sense anything there. I believe it was God showing me that His glory and presence can be as thick as darkness.

Then the LORD said, ‘Behold, there is a place by Me, and you shall stand there on the rock; and it will come about, while My glory is passing by, that I will put you in the cleft of the rock and cover you with My hand until I have passed by. Then I will take My hand away and you shall see My back, but My face shall not be seen.’” Ex 33:21-23 NAS

“Then Solomon said, “The LORD has said that He would dwell in the thick cloud. I have surely built Thee a lofty house, a place for Thy dwelling forever.” 1 Kings 8:12-13 NAS

“I will go before you and make the rough places smooth; I will shatter the doors of bronze, and cut through their iron bars.  I will give you the treasures of darkness, and hidden wealth of secret places, in order that you may know that it is I, The LORD, the God of Israel, who calls you by your name.” Isa 45:2-3 NAS

Our God is ever teaching those who will follow Him in truth, new dimensions of Himself. Paul’s prayer in Ephesians 1:17 “That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of Him.”

I pray this often, and I like it when God is revealing more knowledge of Him to me in dreams, visions and prophecies. I like serving God when His glory and His tangible presence are upon me. I like it when He seems so near to me and the anointing of God is so strong that I feel purposed in Him for great things. Who wouldn’t love that?

man on ladderHowever, God wants us to see another side of Him that is vital for the days and the years ahead and it is vital for the Bride of Christ to arm herself with this knowledge. God wants us to learn about seeing Him in the darkness. I know what you’re thinking that God is light and there is no darkness in Him, which is true but I’m talking about finding Him in the trials, insults, distresses, persecutions and in the most difficult of times, in the delay, in everything! We must learn to see God where He can’t easily been seen. As it is said, “There is an appointed time for everything, and there is a time for every event under heaven.”  Eccl 3:1 NAS

Paul wrote, “Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Cor 12:10 NAS

“Not that I speak from want; for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am in. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” Phil 4:11-13 NAS

Paul said I have learned the “secret,” …which was seeing God in the darkness! He could see God when in abundance or when suffering need or filled and going hungry, he was content because he knew how God saw it, He allowed it.

Its human nature to want things to be easy, but God knows that isn’t the best thing for us. How can we learn to trust God unless we are placed into situations where we (or anyone else) are unable to deliver us? Years ago, I was in the attic of our home, when my eye caught some weight lifting equipment lying on the floor. I heard Holy Spirit say, “It’s the resistance that makes you strong.”

God allows the darkness to come with the trials and the testing. Jesus told Peter that Satan had demanded permission to test him and it appears that the Father, Son and Holy Spirit agreed it was a good idea. Peter was tested, and even denied Jesus, but He had already prayed for Peter’s faith not to fail.

“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan has demanded permission to sift you like wheat; but I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail; and you, when once you have turned again, go and strengthen your brothers.” Luke 22:31-33 NAS

When I asked, Lord how do we learn to see You in the darkness?  He reminded me that the human eye must acclimate when going from light to dark or visa versa in order for us to be able to see. During times of adjustment, we are helpless and feel vulnerable until our eyes have fully accustomed to the situation. Fear desires to grab hold of us when we can’t see. The correct thing for us to do is to walk blindly and to trust the fact that your steps are aligned with God and knowing that He sees clearly.

If I say, “Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,

And the light around me will be night,”

Even the darkness is not dark to Thee,

And the night is as bright as the day.

Darkness and light are alike to Thee.” Ps 139:11-12 NAS

Thinking too Much –

Don’t think too much, it is possible to think ourselves right out of the plan of God. God is working on our behalf whither we realize it or not and regardless if it’s day or night. When we are in the period of darkness, God is working.

Find Contentment –

When we are in the darkness, we must become content with the darkness of unknowing and obscurity. We must learn to walk in pure child-like faith, relying on the Father and the fact that He is extremely aware of our plight. Eventually we will move from unknowing to knowing. We don’t have to understand why, we just have to believe!

The Purpose –

glass houseI believe that God is preparing people to train the bride of Christ. In order to properly undertake this responsibility, we must be purged, purified and refined just as the bride of Christ will be. The darkness and its process is part of God’s greater plan. The darkness is full of tilts, of topsy-turvy and of rollercoaster events which are meant to bring the believer into a place of insight, humility, and child-like faith.  The darkness is cleansing and gives us the ability to see God in the darkest of times. The coming years will be full of darkness and the greatest of evil is at the threshold of time now. Revelation 12: 7-14 (War in Heaven).

Many church leaders around the world are reporting that the things in ministry that used to work are no longer working. Many ministries are struggling to make sense of it all. Attendance and offerings are down and the ones who are coming to church are perplexed as well. All the programs, sermons, praise songs, offerings, etc, aren’t able to keep people in church today. Many in leadership are frustrated and are making the mistake of brainstorming for new ideas to keep the people from leaving. They fail to recognize there has been a paradigm shift in the Spirit and that is the Preparation of the Bride has begun. The answer (insight) will be found when the church goes through a great period of darkness.

“And some of those who have insight will fall, in order to refine, purge, and make them pure, until the end time; because it is still to come at the appointed time.” Dan 11:35 NAS

And he said, “Go your way, Daniel, for these words are concealed and sealed up until the end time. Many will be purged, purified and refined; but the wicked will act wickedly, and none of the wicked will understand, but those who have insight will understand”. Dan 12:9-10 NAS

I pray this brings as much healing to you as writing it has to me.

Be Blessed In Him,

Bro. Bill Nelson



  • When God Fills the Well

     

    I can’t help myself, I believe my God to be an extreme God! I believe He is a God who wants to manifest Himself to His children in an intimate and glorious relationship.

    I want to share some supernatural manifestations of God we have experienced while living at Durham. Durham is what we call our house due to its location in our town. When God directed us to move from the Dallas area in 2003, we bought my wife’s childhood home and moved into it October 3, 2003
    We left behind our home, church, income, friends and a lifestyle in the Dallas area we had flourished in for many years. Upon arriving and inspecting this house, we found it to be in shambles from years of neglect, we could do nothing but cry and feel sorry for ourselves. We sometimes think of the first night we spent in the house, it had 7 window panes broken out, un-level floors, and a bathroom that we hated to use.

    As we sat there in a small upstairs bedroom on a Saturday night, we couldn’t help but stare at the pitiful condition of the room. The people who had rented the house before us bought it had allowed their kids to paint the room in an awful green and blue.

    We were sitting side by side in two lawn chairs, with our feet propped up on a milk crate and a 5 gallon bucket, staring at the wall. We couldn’t help but think of what we had left back in Egypt. We had all but fallen off the edge of the earth, only our pastors, and family had a clue what we were going through. I knew then, in order to survive in the wilderness, we would have to go to extreme levels of faith.

    In my quiet time one morning, Holy Spirit showed me that when Abraham left the familiar land to go fulfill God’s plan, he must first dig a well in each new place he journeyed. Abraham understood that without a reliable source of water, it would be impossible to survive in the harsh land. (Gen. 21:30).
    In desperation, I pressed into God and imagined as I prayed to Him that I was digging a well each time I prayed in my secret place. Day after day I would visualize digging a well with every confession and profession of faith.

    As with any well being dug, you must dig and dig, not knowing when or if you’re going to strike water. I continued to petition God to give us a well in which to drink, just as He gave unto Abraham. Abraham said in Genesis 21:30, “You shall take these seven ewe lambs from my hand so that it may be a witness to me, that I dug this well.”

    The Well Filled Overnight
    One morning, in November of 2003, when I walked down the stairs, I walked into the tangible presence of God. It filled the lower story of our one-hundred year old house. I called to my wife Jae, who was still upstairs, and said, “You had better get down here; the presence of God has filled this place!” She came down and joined me in the living room and we just set there in the heavenly presence of God, soaking in this glorious manifestation. I had felt this presence before on several occasions, but this time it was in our home, from our feet to above our heads, over flowing, flooding our entire being was His glorious presence. This holy manifestation remained for an hour or more and then it lifted.

    A few months later, when I came downstairs in the early morning for quiet time, I opened the door to the living room and again, felt the tangible presence of God, yet even stronger than the time before. It was holy, it was electric, it was heavenly and my body tingled in the glorious presence of God.  Read Portals of Heaven, Ancient Gates

    I sat down in my “quiet time” chair and suddenly I felt an intense, powerful sword, slowly being pushed down into me, from the top of my head down into my abdomen. As it moved downward through my body I could feel every centimeter of its travel. My body shook as I was compressed under this extreme, penetrating power of God, I could do nothing but surrender to what God was doing in me.

    I can’t tell you how long this manifestation lasted but when my wife, Jae came downstairs from her quiet time that morning, the anointing rested upon me and it still lingered in the room. When I laid my left hand on her forehead, she could feel the anointing flow over her head as well. Truly, I had just experienced a divine encounter at the well.

    A Well Is a Place of Divine Appointment
    In Genesis, chapter 24, Rebekah’s destiny was at the well, she had gone there many times but on this particular day, her life changed forever for she was about to meet her Isaac.

    Blue Water Swirling in a WhirlpoolIn John 4: 6-7 “Now, Jacob’s well was there. Jesus therefore, being wearied with [his] journey, sat thus on the well: [and] it was about the sixth hour. There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink.” The Samaritan woman’s life was about to change forever. God doesn’t manifest Himself to us just to give us a thrill but to change us eternally. The effects of our change can impact our family, our city, our region and our nation.

    How many divine encounters have we missed due to our busy undisciplined lives in which we don’t come to the well or when we do come, we don’t allow time to sit and wait for Him at His well?

    In John 7:27 “Now on the last day, the great {day} of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out, saying, “If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink.”

    God will meet you at the well. Come to His well and come often for you never know which day He will be waiting for you there. Come, Come to His well!

    Bro. Bill