His Intimate Touch

Sintimateometimes a well of sadness deep within me opens up with no provocation and spills out through tears from my eyes. I don’t have a reason for why or when, and I can’t stop it. I just run to my Father and let Him touch it. I tell Him of it, not through words, but by my heart cries. He tenderly touches within me a place I cannot see or even fathom, and a healing oil covers me, and causes my fears and sadness to slowly subside a little bit more. He hasn’t told me what it is or why it’s there – we just both know that life has left it’s imprint and wounds take time to heal, whether self-inflicted or not. He is able and mighty, He is the lover of my soul and spirit. Transition and renovation go hand in hand. They are exciting and refreshing and painful.

Cover up and dry up this well, Father. Finish turning my mourning into dancing. Remove my sackcloth and clothe me with joy.



  • Things That Aren’t Even There!

    On May 26, 2009, in the middle of the night, I heard Jesus say, “Things that aren’t even there we tend to encourage”.  I rehearsed what I heard over and over again so I could remember exactly how and what He said to me. I knew this word of wisdom was given for a reason and I needed to understand it.

    In my morning quite time and throughout the week, I kept growing this revelation to see how it applied to my life.  I wanted to think this word was for others to hear, thinking I didn’t struggle with fear, dread or a runaway imagination but in truth we all deal with things that aren’t even there.

    Fear is the Greek word “phóbos” where we get the word phobia. Fear means to be struck with fear or seized with alarm.  Wikipedia states Phobia as an irrational, intense, persistent fear of certain situations, activities, things, or people. There are thousands of phobias listed today, just about one for everything named from A to Z.  You can read more on phobia at Phobialist.com.

    Fear Has Torment

    fear“There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.” 1 John 4:18

    Jesus was telling me things that aren’t even there, things that aren’t even real, they don’t exist but somehow as humans we tend to encourage them as if they were real. We meditate on them and what starts out as a thought of what could be grows in to a full blown episode of fear. Fear will take hold of you if you allow it!

    “Fear took hold upon them there, [and] pain, as of a woman in travail.” Psa. 48:6

    False Evidence Appearing Real

    In the last two weeks, I have had plenty of opportunity to practice this word in my life and I’ve realized I struggle in this area. In fact, we all are faced with the opportunity each day to shrink back in fear from those things that aren’t even real.

    I’ll give you an example. The boss calls you into your office and says, “There’s something I would like to discuss with you, can you come to my office?” I’ve had bosses over the years do this to me and it’s really easy to let the mind run away with thoughts of dread. You know…fear, the worst is about to happen! The mind races ahead a breakneck speed as it begins to create what it thinks might occur. There is no end to our imaginations and to the fearful possibilities of what is about to happen, like he’s going to fire me, he’s disappointed in my performance, I’m about to get reassigned! You see, we do tend to encourage what isn’t even there! It’s not real nor will it ever be.

    “They were in great fear, [where] no fear was: for God hath scattered the bones of him that encampeth [against] thee: thou hast put [them] to shame, because God hath despised them.” Psa. 53:5

    I learned over the years that those steps I took walking to the boss’s office were better spent praying and declaring God’s favor over my life than encouraging what isn’t even there (real).

    People encourage fantasy of all kinds; it’s woven into our being from a child. It’s part of our creation to imagine. We were told that Santa Claus and Superman were real as well as a host of fictional characters. I strongly believed in Superman as a child and would lay out on the grass in the yard waiting to see him high in the sky with his cape flying in the wind as he swept past over my house.  Eventually I determined he wasn’t even real.

    Time proves out what is real and what isn’t real. The media markets the news more as entertainment driven by ratings. In order to get ratings they will jump on any story that can promote their ratings. The easiest way to do that is by peddling F-E-A-R. The most recent episode was the Swine Flu scare of early 2009. It made people tune in for a while and it was great for ratings, but in the end it didn’t materialize as they hoped it would. They had to move on to something else.

    “In God I will praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me.” Psa. 56:4

    Fear! God refuses to allow His children to live in fear! God requires us to live by faith and not allow our lives to be dictated by fear. Fear shuts down our ability to accomplish anything for the Kingdom of God. Fear leads us into sin! That’s right! Fear is sin to God. “So that we may boldly say, The Lord [is] my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.” Hbr. 13:6

    Abraham slept with Hagar out of fear. Fear kept the Hebrew nation from entering into the promise land for a generation. Elijah ran in fear from Jezebel after his great day of victory by killing her false prophets due to her threat! Peter stopped walking on water due to fear.

    Fear and its cousin “dread” are constantly tormenting our lives. How many times have we thought, “I dread going to see the doctor for what he might tell me,” or “Oh, I dread work tomorrow.”

    IRSMy wife and I received a large envelope in the mail from the IRS some years ago. We kept passing it back and forth trying to get the other to open it. Neither one of us wanted to know what was inside this envelope that came from the evil empire of the IRS. My wife opened it and gave it to me to read, I was in such fear that I couldn’t even understand what it was saying. After a few days of dread, I picked up the documents again and read that the IRS wanted us to sign and agree that they owed us money due to an error where we failed to claim all our exemptions on a past filing. The IRS owed us $1800! What we feared didn’t happen, it wasn’t real and it turned out to be a blessing! A God lesson on fear.

    “After these things the word of the LORD came unto Abram in a vision, saying, Fear not, Abram: I [am] thy shield, [and] thy exceeding great reward.” Gen. 15:1 The father of our faith was instructed to “Fear not” so God could bring him into all he had promised him.

    “And Moses said unto the people, Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the LORD, which he will shew to you to day: for the Egyptians whom ye have seen to day, ye shall see them again no more for ever.” Exd. 14:13

    There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18

    In the days we currently live in, we will see great and terrible things which will cause many to fear. The events of September 11, 2001 caused this nation to fear for a short time. People ran to God for protection only to leave within a few weeks of time. So many Christians are tormented today in fear because they don’t trust God to protect, to provide and to care for them. The recent Swine Flu scare, clearly tells me that our nation and our world live in fear. We’re not trusting in God daily. Running to God in time of need is not the same as “Abiding” in Him daily.

    “Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast [some] of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life.” Rev. 2:10

    We must stop fearing those things which aren’t real; encouraging things that aren’t even there and begin immediately to turn to God when we start to feel fear. Fear brings torment with it and it will cause the saint of God to draw back from the things of God, the ever Consuming Fire. We must press into Him in order to stand strong in today and in the things which are coming upon the earth in the days and years ahead.

    We must build upon the foundation of the Rock and become Psalm 91 people which reads:

    Ninety First Psalms

    imagination“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High Will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust!” For it is He who delivers you from the snare of the trapper And from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His pinions, And under His wings you may seek refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and bulwark. You will not be afraid of the terror by night, Or of the arrow that flies by day; Of the pestilence that stalks in darkness, Or of the destruction that lays waste at noon. A thousand may fall at your side And ten thousand at your right hand, {But} it shall not approach you. You will only look on with your eyes And see the recompense of the wicked. For you have made the LORD, my refuge, {Even} the Most High, your dwelling place. No evil will befall you, Nor will any plague come near your tent. For He will give His angels charge concerning you, To guard you in all your ways. They will bear you up in their hands, That you do not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread upon the lion and cobra, The young lion and the serpent you will trample down. “Because he has loved Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him {securely} on high, because he has known My name. “He will call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him. “With a long life I will satisfy him And let him see My salvation.” Ps. 91: 1-16

    My wife heard the Father say many Christians are living a “busy life” because that is their identity. To slow down and make the necessary changes will cause the loss of their identity, of being needed and important. This is a fear driven life of that which isn’t even there (real).

    Fear keeps many Christians from wanting to hear God for themselves because they fear He will tell them something they don’t want to do. If we allow it, fear will keep us from stepping out in faith when God does show or tell us to do something.

    The storms of life will come so we must build our house on the foundation which is found in a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Don’t delay walking in truth and being a doer of the Word of Truth. Allow God to send you into the boot camp of faith! When God allows resistance to come into your life, welcome it for it is the resistance that makes you strong just like the person in the gym lifting weights. If the resistance isn’t there then there will be no increase in strength.

    Jesus said, “He is like a man which builds a house, he dug deep, and laid the foundation on a rock: and when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently upon that house, and could not shake it: for it was founded upon a rock. But he that heareth, and doeth not, is like a man that without a foundation built an house upon the earth; against which the stream did beat vehemently, and immediately it fell; and the ruin of that house was great.” Luke 6:48-49

    May you be blessed by the wisdom of this message!

    Bro. Bill