Spiritual Abduction Leads To False Identity

Spiritual Abduction

Date: October 16, 2012

spiritual abduction smlIn the dream, I saw myself as a young child, two to three years old.  A short, fat, grotesque man, dressed in khaki was standing behind me in the shadows at the back of the room.  He was evil through and through and preyed on small children.  He had abducted me and was sexually perverting me.  The grotesque man was not satisfied with what he had done so and was about to take his molestation to a completely new level.  I knew I had to escape before things got worse.  I took off running for my mother and stood looking up at her.  My heart cried out, “How could you have let this happen to me?  Then, I realized she was not aware that this evil man had ever abducted me.  Again, I cried out, “How could you not know?”  Immediately after the dream ended I awoke, shaken and distraught.  I wondered, “Was I abducted as a child?  Perhaps, I was my mother hid it from me.  I had to take this dream before the Lord and find out the meaning.


I had put it off blogging this dream for a year and one-half because I did not want to discuss it.  However, on March 23, 2014, the Father gave me a dream in the night where He instructed me to blog the dream I titled “spiritual abduction”, which I had on October 16, 2012.  I must be obedient to Him because He wants the bride of Christ to heal and gain understanding how the enemy has worked against us for most of our lives. I am so glad that God was in Christ reconciling the world unto Himself.

“Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.  2 Cor. 5:17


In the dream, the grotesque man represents a demon of sexual perversion.  In order to pervert the soul and create a false identity, the demon slipped in early in my development years.  Mother represents both herself and Holy Spirit as well.  It show that God was with me even though I did not consciously understand it at the time and my birth mother is portrayed correctly as unaware of the demonic activity that was going on in secret in her home. I had to escape the grasp of the grotesque man.  Evil always wants to escalate to a higher level of evil.  If I did not escape the demonic influence then I would become even more perverted and eventually perish in my sins.


My mother was the one who raised my older sister, two older brothers, and me.  She was the spiritually leader in the home as well.  My father was not a man of faith.  He worked in road construction and was away from home much of the time during my childhood years and that is why he is absent from the dream.

As a very young child, I had great interest in sexual matters.  I spent many hours looking through the women underwear section of the Sears, Montgomery Ward, Spiegel catalogues.  My interest in looking at the underwear models was not just normal boyhood curiosity but to learn and explore the opposite sex.  I was a little pervert.

Spiritual Abduction

“Like a flitting sparrow, like a flying swallow, So a curse without cause shall not alight.” Pro. 26:2

My mom was a dear, loving godly woman who was the foundation of our home.  She was a homemaker extraordinaire who carefully watched over her brood, so I know no sexual predator ever abducted me.  She loved God and was the most selfless, generous, hospitable person, I have ever known.  She made sure we were in church every Sunday.  During my days, living in my parent’s home there was not anything evil or unclean ever presented to me by either of my parents other than my dad cussed a lot.  On one occasion, I asked him if I could have a horse.  He went into a wild cussing rage, which I took for a “NO!”

For forty years, I occasionally asked God why I had such an unhealthy interest in sexual matters as a child.  I did not get the answer until He gave me the dream on October 16, 2012, and revealed that at a very young age, a demon entered into my young life and did a spiritual abduction of my life.  The demon was there, cloaked, influencing my youngest thoughts as I developed so I would think, “this is just who and how I am”.  It was there to corrupt and give me a false identity.  In a sense, I never truly got to be “me” as a kid because of the strong, interfering influence of the corrupting demon.

false identitiyI believe a preceeding generation sins opened a spiritual door, which allowed darkness access to our family.  Understand that the same demons that torment your Grandparents or parents, upon their death, will first seek-out members along the family tree looking for a new home so they can continue their torment.  The blood of Christ is our protection against evil.  Satan is the father of lies, a thief, and a robber and hates the family structure implemented by God.  He furiously attacks it is foundation in order to come in and devour you, your children, and your children’s children. It is vital people are covered by the blood of Christ in order to defeat the demons, which are battling us every day, so they are not passed down to your offspring.

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert.  Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.”  1 Peter 5:8

My oldest brother had some of the same issues as I did and even worse.  I do not think what I experienced is that uncommon but recognizing it is.  If Satan has an opening, he will subtly slip in like the serpent he is and begin his evil influence in our lives in order to devour us.  I hope many will read this and recognize how the Satan has been working against them since they were a child.

“Then another sign appeared in heaven: and behold, a great red dragon having seven heads and ten horns, and on his heads were seven diadems. 4 And his tail *swept away a third of the stars of heaven and threw them to the earth. And the dragon stood before the woman who was about to give birth, so that when she gave birth he might devour her child.” Revelation 12:3-4

Today we live in a much more open and perverted society than we had thirty, forty, or fifty years ago.  The access to sexual content via the Internet, TV, XXX storefronts, and in movies has polluted souls in all levels of our society.  Porn today is a multibillion dollar business; some place the value at over a one-hundred billion globally, thirteen billion in the United States alone. Keep your eyes on Jesus and away from porn.

“But if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness.  If then the light that is in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!”  Matthew 6:23

God wanted me to write about “spiritual abduction” and “false identity” so we can better understand some of our childhood issues.  Perhaps, your childhood issues are similar to the ones I experienced and you have been seeking understanding as to why you are the way you were then or perhaps the way you are today.  There is great hope in Christ.  He is the Good News!

“And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”  Roman 8:28

God, The Awesome God, had finally answered my long-standing question about why I was the way I was as a child.  I knew it was not truly, who I was, but I did not understand the cause of it.  He gave me insight into the deceitful, dark world of what Satan is capable of doing and how he wants to destroy a child as early as he can with no exception to age or gender.

I came away from the dream with more understanding of why people live certain life styles.  Through spiritual abduction, Satan perverts a person’s thinking which over time develops a false identity.  A False identity causes a person to live a false life, believing that is their true self. We only begin to find out our true self in by going through the cross of Christ.

  “for God is not a God of confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints.”  1 Cor. 14:33

Whatever, is manifested in a person life is a result spiritual influence of some kind.  When we walk in darkness, we manifest the deeds of darkness and the characteristics of Satan.  However, if we walk in the light our lives manifest the deeds of light and the characteristics of the nature of God.

“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.”  Ephesians 6:12

I cannot count the times my mother would recall my Grandmother’s and Grandfather’s faith, love and kindness they demonstrated by their lives to God and others.  I believe I am a beneficiary of their love and obedience to God.  Read what Isaiah 59:21 declares over the godly pertaining to their generations.

 “As for Me, this is My covenant with them,” says the Lord: “My Spirit which is upon you, and My words which I have put in your mouth shall not depart from your mouth, nor from the mouth of your offspring, nor from the mouth of your offspring’s offspring,” says the Lord, “from now and forever.”  Isaiah 59:21

Even though the enemy held me in his grip, God made a way of escape through Jesus Christ.  He is soon returning for His bride, so get ready by the mercies of Christ.  He will show you anything that displeases Him and give you grace to overcome it.

Oh, what a great victory we have in Christ Jesus!

Bro. Bill

Scripture Reference:

For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. 12 Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you.  Jeremiah 29:11-12

16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh.  17 For the fleshsets its desire against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are in opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the Law. 19 Now the deeds of the flesh are evident, which are: immorality, impurity, sensuality, 20 idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, disputes, dissensions, factions, 21 envying, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these, of which I forewarn you, just as I have forewarned you, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 24 Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Gal. 5:16-24

“But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and manifests through us the sweet aroma of the knowledge of Him in every place. 15 For we are a fragrance of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing; 16 to the one an aroma from death to death, to the other an aroma from life to life.” 2 Cor. 2:14-16

  • The Imposters

    In a dream, I was riding a small motorcycle (250cc) which was light, agile and able to turn on a dime; It could go slow are really fast. It seemed odd to me being on it such a small bike, almost uncomfortable, since I am accustomed to riding larger Harley-Davidson motorcycles.

    I was cruising downtown one of the main streets, made a right turn and on the left corner of the street was a large, stone church with a massive columned porch with many stone steps leading up to the door. There was a large church choir wearing scarlet robes and were assembled on the steps. They were singing proudly as they stood in a stoic posture.

     The pastor of the church was wearing a plan gray suit as he walked up and down in the middle of the street in front of the church and preaching his sermon. He was manipulating his voice, breathing and snorting out the words, it seemed so phony and was a big turn-off to many. I thought of all the preachers that preach in this manner. I drove by really slow trying to sense any anointing coming from this great display of religion and there was absolutely none, I sped on down the road.

     I looked behind me and saw a one-ton truck pulling a flatbed trailer loaded with lumber, I sped up to keep it from running over me. I made a sharp a left turn onto a side street so fast that the keys in the ignition of the motorcycle flew out into the air landing inside of another church located on the right side of the street.

    I got off the bike and walked in the church to find my keys. I looked down the left side aisle which was overflowing with people sitting in chairs, most of them were teenagers. I didn’t see my keys there so I went around the center aisle, looked into the back pews into an unoccupied area.

    Here, a preacher was speaking to the congregation and his annunciation of words was like that of the other preacher I had just left. He would speak a short sentence, and then suck air back in gathering his breath as he held the microphone close to his mouth so you could hear the fervor in his voice. Each sentence ended with him adding “hah” and “ehh”. He’d practiced his technique for years and now had truly mastered it. The people seemed to be impressed by him, mistaking his technique as inspired by God. As I listened, I continued my focus on finding the key to my motorcycle.

     I spotted my keys in the unoccupied seats in the next to last row of pews. I reached down and picked them up, turned to leave only to see the preacher standing right in front of me. He was much shorter than me, an unhandsome man with a round face and bad complexion.

    Matthew 7:22-23 I knew he wanted to say something to me but he just stood there staring up at me. Feeling awkward, I stuck out my hand and introduced myself to him. We shook hands and he introduced himself with the name of a very famous preacher, yet I knew he wasn’t that preacher. Then he told me what his father’s name was and said, “Maybe you’ve heard of Him? He’s going to give me a congregation someday.” I turned and walked away and said in disgust, “That is just what we need…another congregation.”


     These men were imposters; the word “Imposter” means: One who assumes false identity or title for the purpose of deception.

     Imposters are no more than performers and they lead their church with great emotional sermons that have no long lasting impact on the lives of the hearers.  Men like these are occupying a place reserved for only the God seeking, God fearing minister.  Many (thousands) of pulpits are occupied by people who aren’t appointed.

    The dream represents what the church (organized religion) has become today. They are self-serving and without a true anointing from God. Sadly, they are no more than hirelings.

    “He who is a hired hand, and not a shepherd, who is not the owner of the sheep, sees the wolf coming, and leaves the sheep and flees, and the wolf snatches them and scatters {them.} “{He flees} because he is a hired hand and is not concerned about the sheep. JN 10:12-13

    There are many preachers who operate in a false anointing. They get in the pulpit and preach away, all the while their walk with God is superficial if not non-existent. They have evolved the church system into a business in every sense of the word. Many in leadership make decisions based on how it will affect the business side of their church more that what God wants, if God’s direction is sought at all. The imposters are more interested in making a name for themselves in building a bigger business and expanding their business so they look successful rather than focusing on God’s Kingdom purposes. Read The Adulterous Church

    The people are the Lord’s sheep, they’re not the property of a pastor and they must be treated that way; Jesus Christ is their pastor. Their lives are not to be controlled by any man or should anyone in leadership usurp (commandeer) authority over them in a controlling manner.

    Scripture References:

    Jude 4, 10-19 “For certain persons have crept in unnoticed, those who were long beforehand marked out for this condemnation, ungodly persons who turn the grace of our God into licentiousness and deny our only Master and Lord, Jesus Christ.”  v10-19 But these men revile the things which they do not understand; and the things which they know by instinct, like unreasoning animals, by these things they are destroyed. Woe to them! For they have gone the way of Cain, and for pay they have rushed headlong into the error of Balaam, and perished in the rebellion of Korah. These are the men who are hidden reefs in your love feasts when they feast with you without fear, caring for themselves; clouds without water, carried along by winds; autumn trees without fruit, doubly dead, uprooted; wild waves of the sea, casting up their own ]shame like foam; wandering stars, for whom the black darkness has been reserved forever. It was also about these men that Enoch, in the seventh generation from Adam, prophesied, saying, “Behold, the Lord came with many thousands of His holy ones, to execute judgment upon all, and to convict all the ungodly of all their ungodly deeds which they have done in an ungodly way, and of all the harsh things which ungodly sinners have spoken against Him.” These are grumblers, finding fault, following after their own lusts; they speak arrogantly, flattering people for the sake of gaining an advantage. But you, beloved, ought to remember the words that were spoken beforehand by the apostles of our Lord Jesus Christ, that they were saying to you, “In the last time there will be mockers, following after their own ungodly lusts.”  These are the ones who cause divisions, worldly-minded, devoid of the Spirit. Jude v.4, 10-19

    “Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel. Prophesy and say to those shepherds, ‘Thus says the Lord GOD, “Woe, shepherds of Israel who have been feeding themselves! Should not the shepherds feed the flock? “You eat the fat and clothe yourselves with the wool, you slaughter the fat {sheep} without feeding the flock. “Those who are sickly you have not strengthened, the diseased you have not healed, the broken you have not bound up, the scattered you have not brought back, nor have you sought for the lost; but with force and with severity you have dominated them.” Ezk. 32-2-4

    In Christ Name

    Bill Nelson

  • Unfortunate False Identity

    business ladyIt’s taken me years to discover this lesson, the revelation of “who I am,” a seminar of “self worth” and sadly at times I still catch myself falling into that former trap.

    Many years working in fast-paced, aggressive, corporate jobs in the Metroplex, taught me to naturally work my way to the top of practically every job I held. That was my nature, it was easy for me and I enjoyed the amusement, as a sport and an enjoyable competition.

    Identity, it was never a conscious notion, yet like many people, I felt the following to be true:

    • If I’m busy I have a purpose.
    • If I’m busy I am important.
    • If I’m busy I am needed.

    My Journal Entry:

    “I hear an inward, soulish busy voice screaming at me today saying, “Shouldn’t you be doing something useful?!?”  Then I’m reminded of the words, hard words of wisdom (see below) and I take some slow, deep breaths and know I’m in the perfect will of God at this time. I’m to enjoy this time, every second of it, I began to calm down and the inner debate is over…….for now.

    My self wants to DO something for You God, to go somewhere to hear You God, to fast, to read, to make plans, to find employment!  But I know I’m not to DO, but to BE, why oh why is it so hard to just be, be quiet, be still, be here, be content, be now … be?  I’m a human being not a human doing.  I need to sit in solitude, in the quiet and enjoy Your presence and to find myself again.

    BusyIn the mid 1500’s, my good friend St. John of the Cross wrote, “I must learn to stay at rest with quiet attention to God and ignore my desires to keep busy.  The security of activity must give way to the unknown of quiet rest.  I can’t come to know God in the way that I can know any other person or any other thing.  I can’t bridge the gap by effort, imagination or will, faith alone bridges the gap.  There are 3 temptations unto man, to be useful, to be important and to be powerful.”  Oh how I love the words of St. John of the Cross, he’s been where I am, he wrote about it and he “hit’s home” with me every time!  The enemy has no new tricks, only old tricks that he’s perfected over time and I must be aware and vigilant at keeping my peace and inward solitude.  Oh Lord, help me to stay at peace, help me to know my purpose which is to love You, to spend time with You and to BE with You .  And if I can do that, then I am important and I am needed – needed to show my love and devotion to You and to present these truths to others for You.”

    Quote: “People become attached to their burdens sometimes more than the burdens are attached to them.”  ~George Bernard Shaw

    MY BIG DREAMS  – An Acrostic Poem – Sept 19, 2000

    My big dreams for me oh Lord just seemed so right and perfect.  I was

    Yearning for things that were my own plans, wishes and desires.  I’m

    Beginning to see these were my private tactics, self-centered, wrong and

    Indeed untimely.  It’s very true dear Lord, You know my heart and what is

    Genuinely best for me, I trust You.  Truthfully, I’ve felt so let down and deeply

    Disappointed that my requests are placed on hold.  You said some dreams were

    Reserved for my future and that You have a superior plan; a better way.  So

    Empower me to follow near to You dear Father, hold to my faltering hand.

    Again I lay aside my selfish and lofty prayers and here today I cast on You

    My cares.  This present life is only a dream, I’ll be content with what I have.  I

    Say now, “If the Lord wills, I’ll do this or that, and not boast on my own.